Apologies

Ok well my last post kinda stirred up some stuff. Brenda kinda wrote this really really really long post about how I am amazing and all this crap. (Well it wasnt crap it just wasnt true.) You people give me too much credit. Ask anyone I know and they will tell you I am not amazing or great. Apparently I have a threesome of friends (thank you ant for that). My friend told me that she agreed that I am not awesome or even cool. If I were those things, I wouldn't have hurt myself on purpose. I wouldn't have put my friends to shame. I wouldn't have broken all those promises I made for myself. I wouldn't have given up on those goals and dreams I had for myself. I would be someone different. I have tried to get back to my old self but I can't seem to go back to that all happy sunshine girl that everyone used to know. I am the old slow version of me that needs to be upgraded to a more graceful and useful and faster version. Well I am going to go finish writing a chapter for my story so I can't come up with much more.